Happy Birthday to me

I'm twenty-five today.

I don't know how I feel about that. In terms of career/academic achievements, I'm way behind my cohorts, what only a bachelors degree and working only shit jobs intermittently since graduation. But I feel like if one could keep track of more intangible signs of growth like intellectual maturity, better social skills and increased happiness, I probably did better by myself in the last couple of years than I did during college.

As always, my problem is a lack of direction. If only there is an option in life where one can specialize in being a beginner in everything, I'd do great. This is one of the reasons why I loved Susanna Clarke's Jonathan Strange and Mr. Norrell so much. Jonathan Strange is a character that gives hope to dilettantes like me, that one day I too will find that something that I can be passionate about and make my life's work after a misspent youth flitting from one interest to another.

Hopefully, I'll find it someday soon.